Ah, what a good day.  How can anyone be depressed with this beautiful Indian Summer weather?  My drive to work was breathtaking.  The fields look like watercolor paintings, all warm and golden.  The earth seems to ripple and shimmer with the bounty of the harvest.  Tractors are out early, and I love watching the grain spewing into the waiting wagon while the air fills with a fog made of silage.

This morning, I enjoyed my music as I was driving along.  Each month this year, I have created a new playlist on my iPod.  This month, I couldn’t decide what type of music I wanted to save in my list.  I’m tired of the depressing lists of previous months.  I couldn’t decide if I wanted rock, or jazz, or country, or bluegrass, or maybe even opera, so I decided to scrap the whole list thing this month.  October is SHUFFLE MONTH, and I have really been enjoying it.  I got rid of every David Gray song on my iPod, and any other “triggers of sadness.”  I have enjoyed the random selections so much.  It has felt like being reacquainted with long-lost friends.

A song by Phish came on this morning while I was driving, “Gin and Juice.”  I smiled and started singing along.  My smile grew even wider when I realized that I was singing this silly song, but I was thinking of something else entirely.  I was thinking about the funding sources for some of our Neighborhood Stabilization Programs.  Ah…for a few moments I was back to being me again, and that felt so good and right.

This afternoon, I got to put on a hard hat and tour a couple of projects that I have been involved with for almost four years.  One of them is a wonderful new, infill project, and the other is a renovation of a brownstone built in 1847.  I loved the dust and the excitement of the work site.  I loved seeing these buildings progress from plans on a piece of paper to actual bricks and mortar.  I loved hearing that the completion dates are only months away now.  I am so excited to see these building filled with people, homes, and businesses.  I love looking across the skyline and seeing these changes and knowing the positive impact they will have on our community.

Today I remembered again, at least briefly, who I am and what this is all about.  I needed today.  I needed the beautiful fields, the silly music, and I needed to put on a hard hat.

July 2011 Playlist


In January of this year, I began making a new playlist each month for my iPod.  I took all of my 2010 playlists and dumped them into one big list quite cleverly named, 2010 Playlist.  I didn’t get rid of the songs, but I needed a fresh start.   Each month in 2011, I have created a new playlist.  I have kept some of the same songs from month to month.  Some of them are left over from last year, but each month I change things.  I remove a few songs.  I add a few more.  What started out as the desire to refresh my list of tunes, has turned into something else entirely.  Now that it is July, I can look back at the months of this year and remember what I was feeling and what I was thinking as I created and listened to each month’s playlist.  My musical selections have reflected many of the emotions I was/have been experiencing in my life at the time.  Of course, some of my selections mean nothing more than the fact that I like the song!

On the old blog, I posted my list each month, but I haven’t kept up that tradition on this new blog.  I’ve been too busy, too tired, or too lazy.  I was talking to my dear blogging sister today.  We were discussing music or particular songs.  She wondered about the playlists.  I felt guilty!!  I felt disloyal to my old blog, which I dearly miss.  I felt disloyal to my iPod(s), which have been giving me fits!  I have four iPods, and none of them are working properly right now.  It seems that I am in flux in about every area of my life.  Not much is working very well right now.

The Little White Pod is  just barely able to hold the July Playlist.  I miss having my other songs on my current iPod.  Those songs are just sitting there waiting for me to pull the trigger on a brand new iPod.  I’m not sure which model to buy.  I’ve looked at them, but none of them are speaking to me yet.

Below is the July Playlist.  My newest favorite artist is Amy Winehouse.  WOW!  Her lyrics crack me up, AND she is an awesomely talented musician.  I know her personal life is a bit of a train wreck.  Maybe that’s why I like her.  She makes MY life look tame!  🙂  The girls and I have been enjoying “Perfect Two” by Auburn.  Even T knows all of the words to that song, and it cracks us all up when he sings it!  I’m still hooked on Christina Perri and Adele.  They’re both so fantastic!

“F***** Perfect” by Pink has wonderful (if you overlook the F word!) lyrics.  A friend sent me the link to the video.  I have only watched it twice, once alone and once with the girls, and I cried each time.   (Well, I’ve watched it three times now!)  I’ve decided to include the video at the end of this post.  BEWARE.  The video is  graphic, but LIFE is sometimes graphic, my friends.  I would love to have  your comments on this video.  It says so much to me as a woman, a mother, a person who has been hurt, a person who doesn’t understand so much cruelty in the world, and a person who often feels much less than perfect….

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